Feelings are obscure and thoughts are traumatized. My mind seems so blank. I don’t know where to go and how to lend a name to my inexplicable emotions. Looking out of my window, I see a vast blue sky with various imprints of clouds and I imagine what it must feel like to have wings and soar high up in the sky, away from this chaos, violence, and trauma. And then I realize I am being an escapist, which I don’t want to be. Trapped within what can’t have, don’t want to have and what’s been forced on me: to live with curfewed mind, thoughts and dreams! I feel the shackles around me tightening up every moment. Every medium by which I can express myself, tear open my raw feelings, and share myself- is taken, snatched away and ah! I am compelled to be shied away in darkness.
Ah! The eerie silence of the darkness and confinement leads my mind to insanity. My conscience begins to break up. My thoughts loosen and wander away like the beads of a pearl necklace that is torn apart. My memory crumbles and all I can remember and recall are the cries of agony of people who were bundled and then showered with bullets. Their piercing cries of torment keep me awake in the darkness and it is those cries that shake my conscience and burn in me the fierce craving for revolution; the painful cries infuse in me new strength, the deepened passion for freedom- Azadi for those martyred soul; Azadi to wipe away this silence and darkness; Azadi to walk fearlessly; Azadi for a mother to send to her child fearlessly to school because she knows he’ll return; Azadi for a father who can give a clean burial to his dead son; Azadi for those thousands of youths who have in their eyes the aims of reaching heights, touching milestones; Azadi for me to believe that the freedom has given the wings to soar freely high up in the sky!
I am brought back to my poignant reality and my spirits are soared high. My passion instigates in me to take up my cause, show my anger and register my protest, no matter what!

Javeria Khurshid
Deptt. Of English, KU
syed_javeria@rediffmail.com)

Lastupdate on : Fri, 20 Aug 2010 21:30:00 Makkah time
Lastupdate on : Fri, 20 Aug 2010 18:30:00 GMT
Lastupdate on : Sat, 21 Aug 2010 00:00:00 IST